已经很久没有写‘夏日的飞机场’了。
很多新的朋友问我为什么msn上是'小迦’，这个原因似乎真正能够明白的也只有小米和叶儿了。
我已经把小迦和逍遥写分手了，只是在逍遥以后，似乎无法再描写一个让小迦动心的人。
小米和新一历尽波折仍守候着，叶儿和terrence也置身于research之中，消失踪影。
只剩下小迦，依然辗转在各个城市的飞机场，想见到逍遥，亦不想再见。
如果逍遥是一个梦，小迦注定要醒来，而每每望着起飞远行的飞机，小迦也好像离开有着逍遥影子的城市。
那样漂泊的日子，那样忙碌的旅程，而小迦也在繁华的城市中，渐渐淹没了自己。

现实生活中的小迦，已经失去了独自去changi机场的勇气，
因为我永远都会像躲在笼子里的囚鸟，望着其他旅人的解脱。
而也没有一个这样的逍遥，为我放弃流浪的自由。

只是心情有些蓝调，有些不安全感，最惧畏的漂泊无根的感觉又回来了。
如果人生最后都是烟消云散的结果，我对爱情也并不以为然了。

To my future husband:
I just hope you can appear a bit earlier so that I don't need to suffer from meeting the wrong men again and again.
Sometimes they really drive me crazy and make me sleepless at night.
I want to be nice to guys who like me. After all, I enjoy the affection and attention that they shower on me. But when you are just being nice to them, they mix up the signal, and think that they have got hope.
=sigh=
Maybe all these experience are meant to make me treasure you more when you appear.

love,
qiqi