The night you showed me the Orion Belt was almost 5 years ago. That was when I fell in love with Sagittarius, and fell in love with November. I am not an astrology person and the Orion Belt are the only stars that I can recognize in the enormously beautiful sky.

It was an incredibly romantic yet heartbreaking story of 3 stars, or rather 3 hearts; 3 hearts that hurt one another, but also loved one another. I still remembered the story vividly, as I met someone recently who constantly reminded me of you and I knew that I never moved on from the story, the hatred and the sorrow. So I said bye to that person although I felt hurt badly. Tears were uncontrollable, and every time I cried at night, I felt that I cried part of my soul out too. Nevertheless, with the kind of pathetic life, I felt the care and concern from people that I expected the least from. And I thought that was really enough.

I want to be happy, and keep smiling. So I am going to airport today (later at night), on my fav day's eve. Life is in blossom, as long as you know how to appreciate every minutes you are with your beloved ones. :)

Finally, I understand that why I always have nightmares. In my dreams, I am always escaping, trying to run away from something, or murdering people. I need to run away from the married men, the indecisive men, the Can-not-make-it men,  the men who don't know what they want, and the men who know what they want but I am not part of their future plan.

Please don't waste my time any more if you don't treat me seriously or respect me.

If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don't be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it

I got gloss on my lips, a man on my hips
Got me tighter in my Dereon jeans
Acting up, drink in my cup
I can care less what you think

I need no permission, did I mention
Don't pay him any attention
Cause you had your turn and now you gonna learn
What it really feels like to miss me

Cause if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don't be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Oh, oh, oh

Don't treat me to the things of the world
I'm not that kind of girl
Your love is what I prefer, what I deserve

Here's a man that makes me then takes me
And delivers me to a destiny, to infinity and beyond
Pull me into your arms, say I'm the one you own
If you don't, you'll be alone
And like a ghost Ill be gone

I just wish life is really simple so that I don't need to worry too much.
Too many possibilities to compute, too many confusions to clarify.
If love is a razor that leaves everyone's soul to bleed, can I stay away from it?? hmm.. Far far away.
Sometimes I wish there is a bullet-proof jacket for love, so we all don't get hurt for loving wholeheartedly.
Enough of naive thoughts. and come back to the reality, girl!

Work has been quite a big mass recently, a lot of changes, a lot of friends leaving. Everyone is worried about his future career advancement, and everyone is sourcing for the best opportunities available. I stand still, feeling lost and slack about what I really want in terms of career. Maybe I have grown less ambitious over the years. All I want now is just a happy family with a lot of lovely kids; a stable income that feeds my kids well; and a job without much OT so that it does not hinder me from meeting my dear friends and babes.

Oh, maybe I am asking too much too.  haiz..