Qiqi is a bit lost, in what she wants to do in the future. No idea whether i wanna still do banking, which has been my dream all these years. After I ve went to the career talks, I realize that banking is not really what I thought it was to be. For engineers, it's most of the operations and technology divisions, in other words, maths and programming. It's not exactly what I wanna do in banking. Then I think about it, so what do I want to work as? I guess I am not even settled enough to work in a job permanently. I still feel like playing, hanging around with friends, playing mahjong, and chit-chating. So finally, in my final year, I realize qiqi is not ready to be a working adult. and consequently life gets more sian as I lost the focus and I am floating.

I still rem that I used to tell him that I would not give up my career for anyone's sake. It was me, the stubborn, career-minded qiqi. and then it became the biggest regret in my uni life. I think my best occupation will be tai-tai, I think I will be a good wife and a good mother. haha

It's a seriously screwed up day for qiqi today.

1) Some guy said to me on phone 'What is your problem' 3 times. I was stunned, for one moment, I didn't know what to answer. All I did was calling him 3 times when he was in lecture. He didnt pick up the call, neither did he reject it, neither did I know that he was having lesson.

I never know that a guy would talk to a girl in such a way, and I don't know where I am at fault. Nevertheless, at least I am thankful that he didn't speak like some other guys who bury a deep sense of sarcasm in the words.

That offensive sentence just stucks at my head for the entire day and most likely the following week, and I am wondering what makes a guy actually spit the sentence so many times. Is it the guy's problem? or is it the girl's problem?

2) My project group for TR3001 missed out the submission of project 2 totally. None of us was aware that we need to submit it until 2 hours before the actual presentation. We already got the product, but we didn't do any survey, any evaluation and we had to crap a 13-page report, plus a survey and an interview within one hour. In the end, we managed to finish the bare minimum, and the lecturer didn't like our product idea and he asked the rest of students in the lecture to vote whether they will buy our product. Less than 30%.

For the very first time in my NUS life, I missed out such an important deadline entirely and I know it's all because I have been playing around in hall, and busy with stuff that is not related to academics. I foresee that I will screw up my FYP if I continue like this.

Well, enough of the screwed up. It's really bad. Time to study, girl.