乒乓球输了，输在自己的手上，输在最有把握的双打。
相信这一晚，一定睡不着。不明白，上天为什么让我看到了希望，然后又把希望带走。
这时我人生最后一个IHG了，却发现很多时候靠一个人的力量不能改变什么，然而当自己有力量改变的时候，才发现自己其实是这么的脆弱。朋友都安慰我说尽力，或者说运气不到之类的。可是我知道，什么都比不上输球来的难受。是连哭都哭不出来的不甘心。时针没有办法被倒转，一切已经成为了事实，就好像失去你一样的让我束手无策。

最后的夏天了，最后的梦，当梦想破灭的时候，我又能做些什么。

Influenced by my beloved handball girls, I have been listening to MayDay songs, and Ashin is just soooo cute!!.
He has the seih (style) of sagittarious boy. The kind hunting for dreams and never turn back!!

Recently, I get pissed off easily, and throw my temper easily too. I wish it's PMS, seriously, but I know it's not.

I am trapped in dilemma, trapped in a situation where I don't want both ways of the solutions. I wish time could fast-forward, so that I wont see people that I don't wanna see whom will remind me of regretful memories. But I also wish time could stop, so that I still have time to spend with this place, Raffles Hall, where I have stayed for 4 years, exactly half of my life in Singapore. Sometimes I don't wish to see you, coz I would get distracted to think whether she is somewhere near, whether you are more than happy with her. Sometimes I prefer to sit at a quiet corner watching you secretly, hoping no one catches me.

I am so occupied with trainings and friends that I need sometimes alone, to cry, to scream out. coz only if I am alone, i can feel deep down in the heart, it's so damn badly hurt. I need a rescue, but no successful salvation yet. So life continues, and I only get more temperamental. Just wanna say sorry if I pretend to be happy, say sorry if I scold you like no one's business.